I'm not sure how to even start this, but to say wow, omg, wth, AHH! Not in my wildest dreams this week did even think these kids would be born in June.
The medical details are in Brian's post. Blake's growth slowed dramatically and blood flow in the umbilical cord was restricted. As expected, the perinatologist pulled the trigger.
The dr had a very way of delivering the information. He had reviewed the sono and done his own looking. He looked at me and explained the blood flow stopping, said when this happens he can get at best 21 more days. This is his specialty. The steroid shots have peak effectiveness at 48 hours after being given. If we were at 24 weeks he'd have to wait. But why risk one when the odds of viability and success are already so high? Thus, he was advising I get the steroid shot now. He was going to call the OB in a few moments. Any questions?
I was still processing; Brian got it faster. He let me get it and I asked, "So... that means babies on Friday?" The dr agreed. "Should be June 17th," he said. He left to call, I got cleaned up, when he returned he told me his assistant would show me where to go for admission.
Do not leave, do not pass go, I'd paid the $250 hospital deposit yesterday.
Panic set in after admitting but before we got to the room. Forget running to the car, going home, getting stuff, etc. Time up. My eyes were tearing up, but when Brian said something about running an IV I dead stopped in the hall and started bawling. I finally got ahold of myself once we were checked in. Our friend Betsy came and picked up some lunch while Brian left to get my stuff and pick up Mom. After an hour or so it all started to sink in. It's all good at the moment.
So... long story short, I'll be home in a week or so but not with my babies. That's ok - all the babies will be alive. = )
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